This is another perspective I've written my short story from, with the broader overview of the suggested theme I had chosen. Should I change this to Third Person? or is First-person fine?
F.E.A.R. fear. Four letters, with very big lesson. Sometimes
when you think something wrong is happening to you. You are in fact making that
situation up, I do that a lot. That feeling you get when a bad dream controls
you. A dream that consists of all your major phobias towards the world. The
dream that keeps you awake amongst the nights. A dream, that makes you wonder
into the wilderness of your thoughts. The strangling feeling, the feeling that
the hells devil will bestow over you and poke its evil red horns through your
pumping heart. I hate fears, I hate the idea of it, but without it I wouldn’t
be who I am. Without that you wouldn’t be who you are. Sadly, god has not left
anyone fearless, including himself, space and time.
My dream. I woke up sweating, or unless I was awake amidst
of my nightmare-ish wonderland. I don’t know what to call it, I just, sighs,
don’t. I was awake. In the bus. Going stop-by-stop and then the harbour bridge
comes by, my heart slows down, or goes faster? I can’t hear it, I struggle to
hear what pace my heart goes in. so, I do the only thing I can. Look in the
front, at a bunch of other hairs, sitting peacefully as I squirm for comfort. I
was battling with my inner consciousness. Battling with the imagination the bus
might fall off the bridge at such a height, but I refrained myself. “I can do
this, I can go through this nerve wrecking time of my everyday life. I should
be used to it.” I chant in my already worked up head. Then I gazed forward
looking at the still peaceful hairs or at least that’s what I thought. Until my
imagination swarmed further into the deep ends and turned the hairs into a
gigantic bunch of mini spiders, coming towards me. I shuffle in an unnerving
manner. I should be used to it, the bridge, the imagination, the life as a bus
rider. But looking at me at the current stage, I can presumably agree to the
fact I am not. Only, I still let my fears take the best of me.
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